Another one bites the dust

Guess I was overcome with lust

Another apparent dead end

Bittersweet sorrow descends

It seems we’re doomed

And you took me for a fool

I’m seeing your true colours

And they’re blatantly uncool

Thought we’d had a blast

But it wasn’t meant to last

You were only pretending

You’re not the person I befriended

Running around

Up to no good

Wheeling and dealing

In the neighbourhood

Keeping me waiting

Because you can’t be honest

You’re clearly all talk

And can’t keep a promise

I gave you too many chances

In spite of all the red flags

All you’ve done is take

Then left me when I was flat on my back

I called you in distress

But you were compassionless

Playing the cunt to your audience

Taking the piss without recompense

A silly little boy

Who hasn’t grown or put down his toys

No sense of responsibility

Just drifting through life carelessly

Well, I’m done

I’d like to say it was fun

But now I’m weary

Albeit not teary

I’ll never cry over you

Because it’s a good thing we’re through

Best to find out now

And cut my losses somehow

I admit this will be tough

But right now I’ve had enough

You disrespected me

When I was on my knees

I reached out to you for comfort

But you were too fucked to offer it

You prioritised having a good time

Over coming to be by my side

So sayonara

And don’t come back

You clearly don’t give a damn

And I deserve better than that.

Never thought I’d feel

What you make me feel

Never thought I’d find someone

To love me like this – it’s unreal

Loneliness

Is a funny thing

Don’t realise how closed off you’ve become

Until you find what was missing

Two broken pieces

That fit together to form a whole

You move me in ways you’ll never understand

You electrify my soul

Thank you for joining me

On this part of my journey

Thank you for being so open

And for giving me that which I had been yearning

I know it’s still early days

And maybe we’re living

In some kind of haze

I know you said you’re scared

But you’re safe with me

If you can face your fears

I’d never do you wrong

And perhaps one day

I’ll write you a song

But just for now

Please accept this rhyme

I love to you to bits

And hope you remain in my life ❤️

A new pandemic

Is taking hold

The world’s gone beserk

Over Sourdough

An epidemic

Of tart tasting bread

You need a sledgehammer to slice

Being served it I dread

It’s chewy, it’s nasty

It tastes like turd

So heavy and dense

This obsession is absurd

And yet it’s everywhere

In every bakery and cafe

It’s very invention

Is a cause for dismay

No wonder they’ve named it

‘Sour’ / ‘dough’

You need wads of the latter to buy it

And may feel bitter if you don’t

Like a status symbol

It reeks of affluence

Accompanied with smashed avocado

Eating it suggests a gentrified stance

A plague du pain

A pain in the butt

I’m sorry if this irks you

But I cannot stand the stuff!

Fine, you may say,

Do not partake

If it was that simple

For sure another bread would I break!

But try finding granary

Or whole meal or soda

In a city besieged

With this poncy interloper

I’ve scoured every store

In the vicinity

For an alternative loaf

To no avail – what a liberty!

So I was forced to purchase

A slender baguette

Funded by taking out a second mortgage

Which of course I lived to regret

Not only did my knife

Warp, then falter and break

When I tried to cut it –

By morning it was stale!

So it went in the bin

And I went without toast

To eat with my homemade soup

What an utter joke!

Bread should surely be squidgy

Springy, buoyant and yum

Sweet yet savoury and moreish

And not cost an extortionate sum!

And what happened to having choices

As to what variety you can buy?

Why must we all conform

To the latest food fad that passes by?

Not everyone’s bloody tastebuds

Are exactly the same

Not everyone’s a slave to fashion

So please would you kindly refrain

From saturating the shops

And eateries with this crust

It’s like chomping on a piece chipbaord

And I refuse to bow down to this cult.

Caged

I really don’t understand

The point of this thing called life

I feel I’m just stuck passing time

Until I’m released unto a realm without strife

To motivate myself at all

It’s such a chore everyday

Unfulfilled and mostly isolated

I trudge on feeling abject dismay

My aspirations out of reach

What I strive for just doesn’t materialise

I’ve lost my sense of purpose

I don’t understand why I’m alive

It’s not that I wish to be dead

But I’m existing in a vacuum of bland

Little excites me anymore

The tedium wasn’t something I planned

Loneliness and lethargy

Set in some time ago

But this insane pandemic has finished me off

And now all I feel is woe

I don’t know how to amuse myself

How to fill the emptiness

I wish something awesome would f**king give

So I don’t feel such waste and a mess

Age is creeping up on me

Energy sapped and scarce

Nothing to aim for except to earn a crust

But even that is something perverse

Can’t get paid to do what I love

So prostituting myself for cash

For way too long have I walked this path

That I thought was temporary – what a laugh!

I want to fly away, run, escape

But where the heck would I go?

This cage I’m in trapped in is holding me tight

What a veritable, interminable sh*t show.

All you ever did was take

Manipulate and scrounge

Innately insincere and ultimately fake

Like your finger nails and overly botoxed face

Utterly self-absorbed

Playing the Princess-In-Distress

Using everyone who ever gave a sh*t

That you are such a f**ked up mess

We all tried

Until we were blue in the face

To help you face your demons

But you’re beyond help and an utter disgrace

I came to your aid

Many a time

Nursed you when you were sick

Gave you first aid and a hospital ride

And yet again

You bailed when I needed a friend

After sponging off me for over a year

You f**ked me over and sent me over the edge

I am astonished and disgusted

That you could stoop so low

You’re clearly beyond redemption

And deserve ever poisonous seed you sow

Good luck with life

I fear you’ll meet a tragic demise

But I guarantee you this

I will not be crying

I will not be sorry

Because you refuse to help yourself

You just leech off the good nature of others

Like a vampire feeding off their light to alleviate your hell

You deserve all you get

Because you’re rotten to the core

‘The Sick Man Prayer’

Doesn’t wash with me anymore

I’m beyond exasperated

With the pathetic ‘little girl lost’ act

Exhausted with your excuses and lies

You’re a Toxic Tinkerbell and that’s an unfortunate fact

You’ve had enough chances

Been forgiven over and over again

But that was the final straw for me

You despicable imposter who dared to call yourself my ‘friend’.

What the hell just happened?

The skies are now full of rain

There’s an aching in the pit of my stomach

As I wrestle with this pain

You cut me deep

With your unbridled anger

An ambush of words

But I didn’t sense the danger

Until I scrolled down

And unleashed the tirade

Nestled in the penultimate paragraphs

And felt your unbridled rage

Unnecessary

And way over the top

You could’ve said it more kindly

A bomb you did not have to drop

A sneak attack

From way offside

The tactics of a sniper

There was nowhere to hide

Felled in a hail

Of verbal bullets

Mortally wounded it would seem

The death of a friendship

I treasured the most

Psychologically shattered, bereaved

Grieving now

Powerless to act

You’re gone forever

There’s no turning back

You seem to have overreacted

Erupted like a volcano

I’m pretty sure that my misdemeanour

Wasn’t the only trigger for this molten lava show

But I was certainly the target

Right in your firing line

And now I’m not sure if I can forgive

Let alone forget this crime

I really didn’t deserve it

I’d have never obliterated you

It seems you’ve got some serous issues

And I simply lit your fuse

Your resentments must have festered

Masked with a smirk of hidden barbed wire

Until they overcame you and your acidic ulcer burst

Spewing apocalyptic vitriol in a shower of ‘friendly’ fire

I knew you were dangerous

I sensed something was amiss

Intuition never fails

I just wish I had listened and spared myself this.

Live and let live

Don’t judge me too quick

Don’t tell me what to do

Unless you’ve walked in my shoes

Don’t question my actions

For I wouldn’t question yours

Unless I’m hurting someone

My business is none of yours

We all make choices

To suit ourselves

We don’t exist to please others

That would be hell

I do what I think

Is right at the time

It’s got f**k all to do

With anyone else when there’s no crime

So I made a decision

That was right for me

I still have free will

To exercise if I please

You may not agree

You may not understand

But don’t try to dictate

Because you feel you’re higher and mightier than

Somebody else

Who selected a different path

Just butt-out, okay?

Or you may feel my wrath.