Single Awareness Day

Approaches once again

When all singles are reminded

Of the love they cannot attain

Excluded in every way

For not being part of a couple

Acute reinforcement of this fact

Can cause some of them to buckle

So either they opt out

Or in defiance they see it through

Uniting with other ‘lonely’ hearts

To gain strength from not being a two

The propaganda and the pressure

To declare your undying devotion

The commercial machine that churns

Provokes a myriad of emotions

It’s only one day of the year

A mere 24 hours

But woe betide you if you don’t receive

A card, some chocolates and flowers

If no one is clamouring

To romance you and seduce

To bowl you over

Worship at your alter – what to do?

Consider yourself unworthy?

Undeserving of such sentiments?

Harbour feelings of being less than?

Brew a pot of resentments?

No way!

Cast that mentality aside!

And recognise that it’s just

Another way of being bribed

To spend your dosh

And buy into the hype

When in reality

It’s all a load of tripe

Love should prevail

All year round

Not on a bitter cold day in February

That marks the day an execution was carried out

When a martyr was proclaimed

St Valentine

Which begs the question –

Why commemorate a crime?

Shelly

Shelly you’ve been so brave

Shelly you fought so hard

Surpassing all the odds

Now rest in eternal peace, dear love

Not seen you for so long

But you personified the sun

A beaming bright ball of fire

Emanating such warmth

Beyond beautiful

Wide and expectant brown eyes

Always full of life

Always you beguiled

A deep hearty laugh

And a chatterbox for sure

Passionate in your youth

By your mum adored

I just had to wish you well

As you transcend this plane

The like of which I’m certain

We’ll never encounter again

🙏🙌Xx

This Heart

Intact is this heart

Though it did smart

It leaked but did not bleed

When swept out to sea

By the pull of the tide

Almost was it capsized

Until the mighty ocean

Somehow realised

What moved it

Did then soothe it

And ease the sting

Drew it back with gentle words

A peace offering

Words that seemed to sense

That it’s salt had stung

Thus a healing balm was sent

And it was overcome

Cascading warmly

Transmitted through the ether

Restoring it’s serenity

And hope for the future

Not the rose-tinted one

It may have desired

(This heart must now drift carefully

For water can extinguish fire!)

But a continuation at least

Of something fertile and sweet

A blessing in disguise?

Something wonderful that could be?

And so the current flows…

Back and forth…

It is still afloat

And these elements are back on course…

The watery abyss

And this delicate vessel

In harmony for now…

In tune do they nestle…

And a symphony of bliss

Permeates this being

That is content to bask awhile

And not question this feeling

The tide may change

This boat may come aground

Dashed against the rocks

Or sunk without a sound

But this heart does know

It will certainly go on

There are a myriad of waters

It could set sail upon.

Cupid’s in deep s**t!

For drink driving whilst on duty

I was a direct hit

And rendered feeling infuriatingly fruity

Turns out he was p*ssed

As a proverbial fart

I’m incensed he didn’t miss

For now I’m nursing a mortified heart

He’s really done a number on me

Because I clearly wasn’t his target

No way on God’s earth should I have fallen inappropriately in lust

With a dude that was off the market

Well, he can clean up his own mess

This totally wasn’t my fault!

His drunken mishap made me fess up

To feelings I never should have felt!

Now I’m in a tangle

And that reckless chubby cherub needn’t gloat!

The situation is mangled

I NEED an antidote!

A f**king ice cold shower

A course of antibiotics

And to report him to the Love Powers That Be

For rendering me psychotic.

So I’ll never know how it feels

To conceive a brand new life

I’ll never have a little soul occupy

That womb that has caused so much strife

I’ll never know that overwhelming joy

The miracle of a positive test

The blessing of creating with someone you love

Another human that comprises the best

Of both of you (or at least one hopes!)

That can carry your family line on

A tiny person, a joint work of art

That you can bathe in love

I’ll never have a being to nurture

To fret over and to scold

I’ll never have to worry if they come home late

So I guess I’m spared, I suppose

Free to be as selfish as I please

And not contribute to the human race

I’ll never endure stretch marks

Or excruciating labour pains

I won’t fulfil my female ‘purpose’

For my machinery is faulty and broken

I won’t ever know that pregnancy glow

Now the powers that be have spoken

Instead I’ll be rendered a shell of a woman

Intact to the outside world

But I will know and a chosen few

That I’m really incomplete to behold

Have I regrets? Will I weep and mourn?

I hope not, though the nightmares have begun

Although deep down I think I always knew

I’d never become a mum

Somewhere in my psyche

The trauma has already started

Dreams of pushing prams, cradling a bundle

Persist suggesting I’m subconsciously broken-hearted…

So behind the scenes

A part of me grieves

For the life I will never create

But these are the cards

I’ve been dealt by the Gods

And I must accept my fate

I never believed myself fit

To be an effective mother

Never was I maternal, in fact

But assumed it was a decisive act, that’s the trouble

It was never set in stone

And the ‘fairer’ sex can change her mind!

There was always an element of choice

But henceforth of that I’ll be deprived

Barren Sharon

Will I be rendered

How I used to laugh at that pun!

Now it is all

I can think about

And I ain’t laughing for it’s no longer fun

Shit got serious

But no one died

If I’d told you I was devastated

I’d actually have lied

Rather, I’m saddened

Emotional, yes

But thus far I’m not

A gibbering wreck

And when I slumber

I can visit them there

The ghosts of those babies

I shall never now bear.

Harbouring feelings

That won’t subside

Said and done all I can

But still they continue to arise

You say you’ve got someone

You’re quite besotted with

Guess that’s all I need to know

For I’ve nothing more to give

Guess I’ll have to resist

That urge to fold you in my arms

Guess I’m paralysed

For I cannot make you feel what you can’t

For a while there it seemed you felt the same

Guess I read the signs all wrong

Guess it’s me who is to blame

For allowing my fantasies to run amock

For sensing something that maybe wasn’t there

For allowing my head to believe

For chasing a rainbow that was made of thin air

And evaporated when I drew near

It felt so real – almost palpable

A current so strong I shook

But it was unsustainable

And suddenly the power was cut

Everything else remained the same

But the surge was no longer present

Try as I might it wouldn’t reignite

Which inevitably led to torment

So I poured it all out

In the hope I could capture

That vital piece

Of your heart – make it rapture

I should’ve known then

That things were not flowing

When you missed my point

And started joking

But eventually

We had the talk

You set the record straight

And now I have to walk

But I’m carrying with me

An unwanted gift

That part of me I wanted someone to cherish

That I must now set adrift

Off on the ocean

Of unrequited love

They float away, these unrealised dreams

That had seemed to fit like a glove.

This Christmas time

There’s every reason to be afraid

This Christmas time

We cannot mix

That’s what Boris says

Cause in this year of 2020

We can spread a deadly plague

Don’t fold your arms around your loved ones

This Christmas time

In spite of our prayers

They found another strain

This Christmas time, effectively

We’re locked down again

There’s world outside your window

And it’s a world of COVID fear

Where the only water flowing

Is sanitiser and tighter Tiers

And the Christmas bells that ring

Are the clanging chimes of doom

Cause tonight we live in fright

It’s sad but true!

And there won’t be families

Congregating this Christmas time, no,

The greatest gathering allowed’s on Zoom

Where we just sit alone

In isolation at home

Playing to the camera like caged goons!

Here’s to you:

Wear your mask, avoid everyone!

Here’s to them:

Imprisoning us inside our homes!

Do we know it’s Christmas time at all?????

FREE THE WORLD!

LET US OUT – IT’S CHRISTMAS TIME!

FREE THE WORLD WORLD

LET US OUT – IT’S CHRISTMAS TIME!

FREE THE WORLD

LET US OUT – IT’S CHRISTMAS TIME!

FREE THE WORLD

LET US OUT – IT’S CHRISTMAS TIME AGAIN.

NOTHING to look forward to

What’s the point of this f**king existence?!

Society closed for the foreseeable

And no outraged, united resistance!

Under house arrest

Christmas cancelled for the first time in history

The government dictates and we cower and obey

Complicit in our own f**king misery!

Incandescent with rage

I’m pacing inside my gilded cage

Climbing the bloody walls

I’m incensed and so sick of it all

How can this be tolerated?

The saga goes on and on

Businesses going bust, a breach of trust

And it’ll continue in 2021!

It’s inhumane what is happening

Suicides will go through the roof

We have to put a stop to this sh*t

Do you think forced isolation is better than the truth?!

We can’t all live like this

I’ve had beyond a gutful

A pox on the population alright

It’s worse than a living hell

Where’s our backbone?

They’ve got us on our knees!

The only way is up –

Resist for Godsake, please!

They are in the minority

And allegedly are appointed by us

If we put them in power we can bring them down

For bringing us to breaking point – we must!

Even in wartime

Christmas Day marked a truce

It’s a universal festival

But this year completely cooked is everyone’s goose

If we let them get away with this

This tyranny will just get worse

We mustn’t comply – we all must fight

And lift this satanical curse

I don’t know what the endgame is

But I’m educated as to all the theories

That frequently now are becoming reality

And I’m beyond despairing and weary

You cannot escape it

For it’s a global nightmare

Sinister and surreal

In your face it stares

And it’s not friggin COVID

Thats the enemy

It’s a systemic eroding

Of our civil liberties

Just in time for the Winter Solstice

To harness the power therein

And the astrological alignment

Of Jupiter and Saturn once again

The first time in eons

This has come to pass

A critical time energetically

I just pray that this evil it can counteract!

Christmas looms

After a dismal year

2020 is finally on its way out

Yet still we are being urged to exist in fear

I say ‘exist’

Because this isn’t living

Being imprisoned

Divided at a time when we all should be giving

And uniting

To celebrate

Showing our love

Instead of having to isolate

Instead we can’t socialise

Or travel very far

The economy’s in dire straights

And times are really hard

Conflicting advice

Dubious statistics

Literally reduced to Tiers

And a threatened third lockdown is driving us ballistic

The population is divided

As some conform and some rebel

While others sit somewhere in the middle

And what ensues is akin to hell

Constantly having

To watch what you say

Palpable paranoia

As long standing friends fall out due to the state of play

Snitching and sniping

Grassing each other up

The people police

Standing in judgement – WTF?!

Live and let live

That is my rule

Don’t inflict your morals on anyone else

Unless you’ve walked in their shoes

I’m exasperated with this nightmare

How much longer can it last?

If this virus is so deadly

Why aren’t the streets piled up with corpses, might I ask?

Why aren’t the morgues

Overrun and bursting?

Why aren’t the Nightingale Hospitals

Full instead of deserted?

Why did we have a month

Of the Eat Out To Help Out scheme?

A relaxation of rules in the summer?

Then a descent back into hysteria from Halloween?

It’s utterly bat-shit crazy

It’s either a pandemic or it is not

And don’t get me started on the knee-jerk vaccine!

What a very convenient twist in the plot!

Intended to be jabbed in the arm

Of every human walking the planet

Untried and virtually untested

Funded by Gates and other Silicon Valley magnates

Who are devoid of medical training

Yet who are being pressed for their ‘expertise’

Which consists of stockpiling billions

And smacks of an insatiable desire for power and greed

The rich get richer

As this global ‘emergency’ is beyond lucrative

And the poor get f**ked over once again

As their livelihoods are obliterated

And it’s actually all materialising

In glaringly obvious plain sight

Right before our (closed) eyes (for some)

Are we being plunged into this desperate

plight

The propaganda machine

That perpetuates this terror

Surpassing itself right now

As we comply en masse – a fatal error

Like lambs to the slaughter

Docile and blissfully unaware

Are those who swallow the official narrative

Sleep-walking to their doom – I despair

The dismantling of democracy

A descent into dictatorship

Freedom revoked for the foreseeable

And so many acquiesce with it

So many – but not all – thank the Lord for that!

For every herd a black sheep has

And if enough black sheep form a herd of their own

We can put a stop to this world gone mad

I’m convinced this shall definitely come to pass

For we must carefully watch those that are quiet

The majority may currently be ‘silent’

But in time I predict a riot

And by the grace of God

Sanity will prevail

We’ll win this psychological war

If it means fighting tooth and nail.